Last Thankful Thursday of August 2013-8/29/2013

Today I am

 THANKFUL

    For my last Thankful Thursday I want to focus on being thankful. Really appreciating all that I have and all that I am. I have written and re-written this post several times...and still it seems difficult to express how I feel. Do I love my family? my life? YES and YES. Do I appreciate all that I have? All that I have lost? All that I will gain? YES, YES, and YES. But I want to express more to this blog...show that I am really grateful for the quiet moments as well as the loud moments...instead of using my words, though, which lack the ability to say what I feel, I scoured the Internet looking for those wiser than I! Here are a few of my favorites:

• “One of the main reasons that we lose our enthusiasm in life is because we become ungrateful..we let what was once a miracle become common to us. We get so accustomed to his goodness it becomes a routine..” 
  ― Joel Osteen, Your Best Life Now: 7 Steps to Living at Your Full Potential
• “Rest and be thankful.” 
  ― William Wordsworth
• “Do not indulge in dreams of having what you have not, but reckon up the chief of the blessings you do possess, and then thankfully remember how you would crave for them if they were not yours.” 
  ― Marcus Aurelius, Meditations

And finally a quote I hope to live by or at least aspire to live by:

• As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them. – John F. Kennedy

     I have asked myself if I will continue on with Thankful Thursdays or move on to something else over and over again. I am not sure. I like looking at the small details of my life and trying to share what I care about but on the other hand I do not want this to become difficult or feel forced. So for now I will let Thankful Thursdays rest...I will not stop being thankful or grateful...but for now I am excited to think about what this next month holds! Wordless Wednesdays, maybe? Throwback Thursdays, perhaps? Tutorial Tuesdays? Or some other alliterative alternative? Stay tuned....

• References:

 Osteen, Wordsworth, and Aurelius quotes found on: http://www.goodreads.com/quotes/tag/thankfulness
Kennedy quote found on: http://newlife.com/28-quotes-on-being-thankful

Thankful Thursday...Aug. 22, 2013

     This is the 3rd installment of Thankful Thursday! If you made it this far: THANK YOU!



*image from marketingpilgram.com

So I decided that today's Thankful Thursday is going to focus on: THIS BLOG!

• My blog. I am thankful to have an outlet where I can write my ideas down, let out some of these crazy thoughts that jumble around in my head, and the best part is that someone reads this! When I started this blog I had visions of becoming a world renowned, cutting-edge blogger who traveled the world talking about how YOU TOO CAN BECOME A FAMOUS BLOGGER! Ok, so not really. I thought I would keep a record of the different crafts that I liked to do and maybe have some place that I could exchange ideas with other like-minded bloggers. I started this blog with gusto but like most bloggers I began to fade in my blogging posts.  Life became hectic, things got in the way, and sometimes I just didn't have anything to say. BUT for some strange reason I have been compelled to come back to this blog and write...to share....to just say HI. I know that this blog is not huge. Or that people have never felt the need to wake up and read my blog but I love having a place of my own in this huge Internet world where I control a space. Its not world famous but it is mine!

  This week's post is short but I dedicate to all you bloggers out there who write to share, to feel in touch with a vehicle as large as the Internet, who sometimes need 5 minutes to yourself because the kids have you going crazy or work has you stressed out so you blog, or even those who cultivate a blog like a gardener tends their space-working hard and pulling weeds each and every day! I dedicate this Thankful Thursday to the occasional blogger, the obsessed blogger, and the one's in between! Thank you!!

Thankful Thursday-August 15th, 2013

Welcome to another Thankful Thursday! This experience has really made me stop and think about what is important in my life as well as what should be important in my life. All week long I think about what I want to post here on Thankful Thursdays. Some days it is serious:

• Life. Although people may not think so because of my anxiety and panic I really do love life. It scares me. Intimidates me. But I love life and all the little miracles that accompany it. A cloud. A flower (I mean, have you ever looked at a multi-colored flower? Art! As a knitter, changing colors is a difficult task so I can appreciate a multi-colored flower!) Love. Laughter. 
• Being. Feeling myself in the moment. Embracing all the little and big things that influence who I used to be, who I am, and who I will become.

Other days Thankful Thursday ideas are less serious (So maybe not less serious but more hungry?!?)

• Triple nut bars.Seriously triple nut bars are the ultimate in snack foods! Consisting of sunflower seeds, cashews, peanuts, and pecans (wait....that's 4 nuts...why do they say TRIPLE nut bars? Oh...sunflower SEEDS...not NUT. Nice play on words. I applaud that!) and some sort of sugary concoction that holds all the nuts into the bar...yum...sweet and salty and so good!
•  Microwave popcorn.  Microwave popcorn in my main stay food. I LOVE it! I am a master in popping the perfect bag. Not too many kernels, no burnt pieces, and just the right amount of buttery popped goodness. On my microwave DO NOT use the button marked: Popcorn. Oh no! Instead put it in for 2 minutes but keep it in for only 1: 47 seconds. Trust me: perfect! 
• Diet Pepsi. Diet Pepsi. What can I say? Y..U..M!

Still other things cross my mind that are good for Thankful Thursdays:

• Driving. I love to drive. Not long road trips but backwoods trips that show me how beautiful the state of Virginia really is. For instance, when I go see my sister, Lisa, I have to travel about 30-40 minutes into the backwoods. I love the wind coming in the window, music blaring, singing on the top of my lungs like I am a rock star. In these moments I feel like I am the only person in the world and it is up to me to appreciate the beauty around me. Old buildings, the rivers, the fields, the way the sun filters in the tall pine trees. I imagine that is how the world looked before the Industrial Revolution and everything seemed new. 
• The Internet. I live in a small town in Virginia. Tiny. I love it. But sometimes the world feels too small and I need to reach out to people other than family, I need to broaden my horizons, or just understand what is going on in the world. The Internet does this for me. Even though I come from a time before the Internet was mainstream I appreciate its usefulness and its ability to make the world more...flat. 

How do I narrow it down? How do I chose what I am truly THANKFUL for over what is mere hunger or random thoughts? :) I don't! I write a blog post like this one! 

*Sorry no pictures this week! I have been spending a lot of time knitting and have not found something fitting for this post. Check back! I might have one tomorrow!! :)

Thankful Thursday-August 8th, 2013

Today is actually August 9th, 2013...it seems Blogger ATE my original Thankful Thursday post! I set it up to auto-post and when I checked today: IT WAS GONE! I am sorry about the late re-entry!

     This is the second installment of my Thankful Thursday series for the month of August. I was nervous about last week's post but got really positive feedback so I know I am doing the right thing! This week was a really rough week and I had to dig deep into myself to find something to be thankful for. Have you ever had one of those weeks? You know you have things to be thankful for but time, stress, bad things, your own inner voice-all conspire to make you blind to the good aspects of your life. That was how it was for me this week as well. So here it goes:

• My family. I know that I was thankful for them last week and you may think it is cheating to name them again but I really am thankful for them. The support and love they give me pulls me through my darkest times and makes me grateful to have been born into such a great group of people. I never want them to think I do not love them or appreciate them. From a simple cup of coffee to a phone call that brings me to tears with laughter--I appreciate all they do for me both little and big. Thank you everyone!
• A baby's coo. 8 weeks ago my newest great-nephew was born: Tyler Wade. Yesterday I saw him for the first time in a couple of weeks. Oh how beautiful he has become! He smiles and coos! Already! 8 weeks ago he was in-utero, floating around in flotsam and jetsam, unable to do anything, and now he smiles and coos: AMAZING!
• A new kitten. I was not happy to come home last Monday to see that my 11 year old niece had found a newborn kitten in our pantry. She and my brother decided that the kitten would be better off being taken care of by people instead of her mommy kitty (who was nowhere to be found). I do not agree with animals being taken from the wild and taken care of by people who think they know better than the animals mother. However, this kitten has become a great source of joy in my home. She is so sweet, playful, and beautiful. She has quickly moved our home around to fit in and even the dog (who no one likes-see last Thankful Thursday) loves the kitten. If only she would stop using the bathroom on ME!

Alice the kitten....isn't she adorable?

• Laughter. Sometimes I get so wrapped inside my own head, deeply entrenched in the grip of anxiety, that it gets lonely and dark. On the outside I smile and talk, joke around, and try to pretend everything is "normal." BUT it gets difficult on some days and I want to hide, disappear, and shut the feelings away. The only thing that combats these feelings is laughter. In my family there is no shortage of this! Thank goodness! If you get more than one of us together laughter will overcome us and brighten even the darkest moods. Here is a true example: My great-nephew needed to go to the emergency room (he is ok) and my niece (his mother) asked me to watch her two oldest children-8 year old Carmen and 5 year old, Taylin. No problem...emergencies are emergencies! Carmen and I were talking and she went to sit on my coffee table when I said: "Watch out, Carmen! Don't sit on the house phone!" She looked confused and said: "The what?" "The house phone,' I said, 'Its on the table." She looked even more confused and said: "The house phone? WHAT is that?" She then proceeded to pick up my house phone and ask if she could play games on it! I laughed as I realized that at 8 years old she did not know what a home phone was...only cell phones! I am still laughing at her innocence, her confused look, and the look of disappointment when I explained that you can only make PHONE CALLS ON THE PHONE!
  
  
  So this concludes the 2nd installment of Thankful Thursdays...what have you been thankful for this week? If, like me, you had a rough week please feel free to use my Thankful Thursday to help overcome any obstacles...I do not mind sharing! Also, if you have any 8 year old children around you and need a smile....explain to them about house phones over cell phones! The look on their faces is priceless!! :) Until next week....

First Thankful Thursday- August 1st, 2013

     Today is my first installment of Thankful Thursday and I am kind of nervous! But here is goes...
This week I am thankful for:

• My family! I have a great family! We are always there for each other through the good and the bad. They are the best friends I could ever ask for. Seriously. I would be nothing and no one without the support of my family. 
• The sound of a gaggle of kids yelling my name! This week Beth (my niece) stopped by unexpectedly, normally unexpected guests throw my anxiety into overdrive, but she brought with her 5 of my great-nieces/nephews! As they exited the car they all cheered: "AUNT CATHY!" like I was the highlight of their day! Then the kids, 8 years old to 23 months old, all ran up to me and hugged me! It was the sweetest thing! 
• My dog. A lot of people hate my dog. I have had him since he was 6 weeks old and he is turning 13-14 years old. He is a grumpy old man but, and in all fairness, was a grumpy puppy-to everyone BUT me! He is the sweetest thing really. He barks and tries to intimidate everyone but that is because he is small (he is a MIN PIN/POM mix) plus he has a little vision issue because of his age. The other day I was feeling crappy (not physical but emotionally and mentally) and my dog crawled on my lap and hugged me. He put his head back on my chest and just laid there. Tell me how can people hate a dog that hugs?

Isn't he adorable?

• Knitting. Without knitting I do not think I could make it through the week. It calms me, soothes me, challenges me, and flexes my mental acuity. Not to mention that I get to create lovely items for friends and family. This week is all about my nieces, Brie's, soon-to-be born son. The shower is on August 11th so I am in the process of making gifts. So far I have made an afghan and a baby hat (check back later for a blog post...and for a sneak peek...check Instagram!) and am in the process of a pillow (for decorative purposes!) and maybe something else...

    Phew...I did it! I finished my first Thankful Thursday! It was not as bad as I thought! Check back next Thursday for another installment!!! What are you thankful for?